Don't Get Me Wrong

I know that I have come across a bit on the harsh side with all of the we want justice stuff. Frankly, in this situation there just isn't any. We can't spend our time placing blame, trying to analyze the situation every way from Sunday. There are no clear cut answers as to why, what if, etc. There just aren't. In time the wounds will heal and the sick pit in our stomach will cease. We will go on and remember it only on occasion. The lasting reminders are the one we have yet to face. The future will bring what it will bring, as for the past we have no choice but to forgive it and move forward. If we don't we will cease to progress. We will cease to enjoy life and what would be the purpose of that? It is our job as the parents to model healthy behavior. We have a responsibility to these children to show them appropriately how to deal with adversity and to over come it. If we give up, so will they. I can not let that happen. Not even for our son. He has to be held accountable for his actions but be given the chance to make amends the best way he can, learn how to cope and be a productive member of society without perpetrating again. Period.

Even though I am angry about the way it will come about, I do agree that he is still a child and has, if he chooses to take it, the opportunity to turn this around for himself. I hope that he does. I hope that he can learn from his mistakes and never do this, or anything else like it again. As a mother, my heart aches and breaks every day. There is no good outcome to this situation. No matter what happens we all have adjustments to make because he will not be coming home again. I am glad, and extremely sad all at the same time. We are riding this razor's edge that hurts like hell every time we take a step because it is not where we wanted to be at all. But what is, is. We can not change it, no matter how much we want to. All we can do is cope with what we have been given and come from love while we do it.

"All you need is love, love is all you need." The best medicine for this situation or any bad situation for that matter, is healthy dose of love. It really fixes everything. Clique`, yes, but true none the less.